I Can Finally Be Open :)

It's such a nice feeling to finally have my blogs private. I'll be honest, it was kind of annoying having random people from my ward, family members, Jared's family, etc... read my blogs and comment on them. I felt the constant need to make sure everything I wrote was appropriate. But now, I don't have to worry about anything :)
First of all, I want to thank you all for following my blogs ever since the beginning :) This blog is basically a diary of my relationship with Jared. In case ya'll can't tell, I'm kind of obsessed with love. Scratch that. I'm completely obsessed with it. I'm not one of those girls who doesn't know how to live without it, or is desperate, or lives their life around it. No no, that's not me. I am completely obsessed with it in the way that I want to capture every moment of it. Because sharing something so special with someone is rare. Why not celebrate it? The reason I take so many pictures, videos, and blog so much is because I never want to forget all the moments. The little things. I believe love is one of the closest things we have to magic.  There are only a couple people in our lives that will define what love is supposed to feel like. Not the love we thought we felt in Jr. High with that boy you dated for a month. But true love. The kind of love that is patient and kind. The kind that does not envy or boast or is rude. The kind that is not self seeking or is easily angered. True love keeps no record of wrongs. It does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, trusts, hopes, and perseveres. True love never fails. The people that make us feel that way, and truly love us, should be the most important people in our lives. And I've found that, with Jared :)

 

 For example, 

Mother Nature decided to drop by yesterday and give me a much wanted gift (ha..ha) Which resulted in me being moody and complaining about my "girl problems" to Jared. The word "tampon" may have been mentioned more than once. But he's such a good sport and just goes with :) We decided to go swimming cuz it was super hot outside. Word of advice: Don't go off the diving board when you're on your period. Just... don't. I freaked out cuz I couldn't feel my tampon anymore (tmi? I warned you I wasn't going to hold anything back anymore). I ended up being wrong and everything was fine. But Jared got out of the pool and walked all the way to the bathroom with me and waited outside to make sure I was ok. The stuff that boy puts up with... I tell ya. 

I know it sounds stupid, but it's seriously the little things. 

I never thought I'd be where I am today. But it's all because of freaking love. When you know it's right, it's right :) And I know that everything with Jared is exactly how it's supposed to be. This is where I'm meant to be in my life right now. And honestly, I'm nowhere near ready to get married. Not because I don't know how to be "committed". Just because I feel like there's more that I need to do in life before I get married :) Which works out perfectly with him still having to go on a mission :) (Does Heavenly Father know me, or what?) :)

 Am I going to wait for him? I want to say yes. But at the same time, it didn't exactly work out when I said I was 100% certain I was going to wait for the first missionary. Then again, I like to think this time is different :) Because it's Jared. And HE'S different. He's everything I've always wanted, but never had.

One thing I DO know is that God's plan is always the best. And I believe that his plan for me has brought me to where I am. 

Quote of the day:  

 "I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know we’re better off letting go. Its like we’re scared to lose what we really don't have. Some of us say we’d rather have that something than nothing, but the truth is to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all. "

<3

I've learned to let go of what's hurting you in order to make room for what truly makes you happy :)

And it's the best decision I've ever made.

:)